Hey -
And here it is…
It still amazes me the magic that is made from my desk and how technology has afforded the ability to do it and in this way.
Bear with me, but this 80’s child still revels in what is possible.
As a kid I wanted to be a radio presenter and writer but back then the gatekeepers loomed large and it would always have to be on someone else’s terms, at their tables, at their choice.
It’s not lost on me that I’ve built my own table and help others to create theirs.
I recently felt called to move my photograph of my late Grandmother from its long held position of my bedside table to my workspace. Some comfort given in having her by my side during the days rather than nights.
She would be so utterly proud of me in SO many ways.
As a woman who came to the UK from Grenada in the 50's she didn’t have these opportunities. She wasn’t able to use her voice in this way.
I feel her acutely.
I feel her joy and I feel all she sacrificed, swallowed and navigated to get me here.
There was a time (and sometimes there still is) when I experience the weight of it in a way that feels heavy and hard. And it results in sadness that manifests in guilt, overworking and overcomplicating in order to reconcile complex feelings of guilt and grief for her and all the others of my familial and ancestral lines and beyond.
Until that sadness then grew into a 'they didn't do all that so I could experience this' way of being.
If I’m going to do anything it is to honour that with my whole heart. Wholeheartedly.
To be the wildest dreams I believe I am.
I am her but with opportunities.
That’s just it. I’m my Grandmother but with opportunities.
I’m proud of me for taking them and creating what I have and what I'm yet to.
I have channeled so much of this energy of creating what I wish to existed, legacy, reciprocity, disrupting, detangling and reimagining into my upcoming projects.
My Root & Rise Membership being a vessel for it as was my recent Resident Life Coach role with D&AD Advertising Agency x Google: Shift Programme.
Big wholehearted energy.
This isn’t the letter I thought I was going to write to ‘announce’ my
new website, it feels like a stream of consciousness/journal entry if I'm honest and alas that’s what sharing and showing-up with heart looks like sometimes.
And I'm here for it.
Big thanks to
Davina @lemons.me who held me beautifully as she developed my creative concept.
Have you got something you've been waiting to press publish on? I'd love to hear about it. Feel free to reply and share.
Sending love,
